Hey Again :-)

 

So it’s been a hot minute since I have posted on this blog.  I figured this might be a great space to articulate where I currently am at right now.  Events of the last few weeks have prompted me to realise that I need some time for me to work on myself, particularly around how I show up for myself and others.  I need this time to love myself from a different layer and perspective… you know, I believe they call it ‘soul searching.’

This last week I have been heavily invested in journal work, podcasts, catching up with people, and lots of other stuff.  Did a cool painting, got a promo photo with Townsville Libraries (check out their socials and stay tuned for new card) and I didn’t win the diary design comp (but still got a great prize). T also did a theatre bootcamp with Theatre iNQ and did so well and enjoyed it immensely.  I’ll be honest, I have actually really enjoyed not having social media and I’ve kind of enjoyed temporarily hiding from the world and just working on me and my own head space.  I have enjoyed really simple things again. My sleep (has for the most part) improved. It’s been fun having random people interact with me and start fun conversations. It’s been fun gratitude journalling. Doing random things without context. Listening to uplifting podcasts and reminding myself I am wonderful and need to continue to seek joy within myself and what I can do in doing good in the world.  There are things I want in my life and I know that for me to get there, some things need to change temporarily. 

If I could explain where I am at in analogy terms, I feel like I am on one of those fighter adventure games where you go through and fight the small bosses.  But there comes a point in the plot line where you fight the ‘big boss/ super boss/ chief boss’ (or whatever you choose to call it).  I feel like I am facing that right now. And for me that big boss is me and my own head. My habits that come from the desire to be cared about, respected and loved.  But how often do I give that to myself? How often do I really truly listen to who I am and where my own thoughts about myself are at? And don’t worry, I’m not isolating myself or doing it on my own.  I know there are people around. I’m also cool if you want to reach out and have a chat - I might just not respond right away.  

I am not sure how many will completely understand where I am at.  Just know I am completely ok, I just need my space to work on me.  I feel like I am willing to do the work, and with that, am evolving into a new version of myself.  I will jump back on the socials soon, for now it’s not serving me while I am doing the work.  I will be posting this and then staying logged off. But I do invite you to send me a message if you want to reach out and say hi. I promise I don’t bite.  I could be off for a week, maybe a month, maybe 6 months… who knows to be honest! 

Anyways, take care, love to you all and see you on the socials soon!